I feel so blah.
I cant work out if I'm tired or not and I'm thirsty even though Ive already drank 3 glasses of water in the last hour, and now I dont want to drink anymore because Ive given myself stomach ache. This is a vicious circle my body's putting me in. twat.
Mother is angry at me for getting home late, even though I rang her and told her roughly when Id be home, and I cant help if a train is delayed, can I? 'I dont like you out at ridiculous hours!'. Ridiculous? it was about 11 when I walked through the door, and Im often out later than that in town. The time isnt ridiculous, shes ridiculous. My last couple of days were lovely though so I dont really care that shes not speaking to me. My last couple of days were naaaice. I like London lots 
...and old russian ladies that might not actually be russian but whatever they are, they take ages to get on and off buses. And I was in good company 
Mother has just come in to moan my music is too loud ¬_¬
I love how annoyed she gets at me, her face goes weird and screwed up making her look dead funny and a bit like a frog. It makes me laugh which annoys her even more, then she walks away saying 'Im not going to speak to you when youre being immature like this'. Its not immaturity fool, its your frog-like face!! She has to speak to me sometime soon anyway, I mean we're going on holiday on Sunday so she doesnt exactly have a choice. I dont want to go on holiday. Its at the most annoying time. Im missing my GCSE results day, peoples birthdays, Reading Festival and V festival. Theres other stuff which is just making this holiday seem like more of a pain in the arse by the day.
& new shoes have crippled me.
Dear lord, I feel depressive. Well not depressive but more like in a dead shit mood. It probably isnt helped by the fact that Im listening to Taking Back Sunday. What an emo...
ALSO! lately i keep doodling eyes and octopuses. I looked up meanings for both but apparently doodling octopuses isnt very common...however eyes are, and it said;
'Doodles of eyes are often sign of a wish to be alluring. However, repeatedly doodled eyes may indicate that they feel constantly watched.'
I found this quite funny as I keep thinking people are looking at me lately. I dont know if its me being paranoid, slightly vain or if Ive got something down my top and they really are thinking 'ha! gutted at her shes got something down her top! what a loser!'. Whatever reason, most likely to be the third, I thought it as funky that my doodle actually meant something, even if it is only small.
