"'Its horrible, innit? This situation. Its so, SO gay.'

Gay. I hate the way we use that word these days. Just means anything we dont like, anything that's not cool, and as we're teenagers thats about ninety percent of everything. So socks are gay, spots are gay, science is gay - I mean, I'm not arguing here, they ARE all gay. But things being the way they are, with my heart and stuff, I dont need my possible future sexual identity bandied about as a byword for everything thats rubbish. Then, when Sugar uses it like that, which 'gay' does she mean? Does she mean shes got gay feelings about me? Or does she just mean its rubbish to have old and new friends meeting up? Well, I'll vouch for that one. But as if the whole gay thing wasnt confusing enough already - did it really need this? Gay is the new sad - its offical!"

Sugar Rush

Just a quick blog to talk about my brother, Jack.

Having just got back from a holiday in Cyprus with him, mother and my stepdad, Ive realised how much I really love him.
I dont care if this sounds major cheesy or whatevs because its true.

He’s 13, steals my ipod constantly, gets mistaken for my twin on too many occasions and finds great pleasure in finding ways to annoy me, but hes one of my best friends. I can tell him all sorts and know he wont tell anyone else. He’ll cover up for me with my parents all the time, even by pretending to be me on the phone when I havent called by the time I said I would.
He always sticks up for my mum and I, even if it does mean taking a hit from my bastard of a stepdad. He takes so much shit from my stepdad about how he acts and what he wears but he never lets it get to him and just ignores the cunt. I admire the way that at such a young age he doesnt care what people of think of him, and he’ll do whatever he can to make sure the people he loves and other around him are happy.
I have more private jokes with him than I do with anyone else, and he knows that when I’m upset all he has to do is repeat one to cheer me up. He knows when I need a hug and a talk and when I just need my space, and he respects that. I love how he is really protective of me even though he sometimes pretend he couldnt care less.

I dont know anyone more caring than him, and as soppy as this sounds, I WELL love my brother (:

yes, yes i do have the most awful laugh in the whole wide world.

So im in Cyprus right now. Using the hotels internet, at half past midnight.

Take me home now! Its too hot here (34 effin degrees it was today!), I dont like my family, theres scary children, the sun has given my cheeks freckles, and the greek men keep kissing my face and pinching my arse.
ANYWAYS
I didnt blog to moan, as much as Id perhaps like to it will depress me. What I came to talk about was my GCSE results! As Im not in England, my cousin who works at my old school picked them up for me, then emailed them to me earlier today.
I got;

Maths (foundation, im shit at maths) - C
English Literature - B
English Language - B
Biology - C
Physics - C
Chemistry - C
ICT - D
RE - A
Drama - A
Geography - A
Child Development - B

Im pleased and beat all my predicted grades
The only one im annoyed about is ICT, but lets face it, its pretty obvious i know how to work a computer.

So overall, despite the fact I dont like my location as of now, Im dead happy!

I feel so blah.
I cant work out if I'm tired or not and I'm thirsty even though Ive already drank 3 glasses of water in the last hour, and now I dont want to drink anymore because Ive given myself stomach ache. This is a vicious circle my body's putting me in. twat.

Mother is angry at me for getting home late, even though I rang her and told her roughly when Id be home, and I cant help if a train is delayed, can I? 'I dont like you out at ridiculous hours!'. Ridiculous? it was about 11 when I walked through the door, and Im often out later than that in town. The time isnt ridiculous, shes ridiculous. My last couple of days were lovely though so I dont really care that shes not speaking to me. My last couple of days were naaaice. I like London lots ...and old russian ladies that might not actually be russian but whatever they are, they take ages to get on and off buses. And I was in good company
Mother has just come in to moan my music is too loud ¬_¬
I love how annoyed she gets at me, her face goes weird and screwed up making her look dead funny and a bit like a frog. It makes me laugh which annoys her even more, then she walks away saying 'Im not going to speak to you when youre being immature like this'. Its not immaturity fool, its your frog-like face!! She has to speak to me sometime soon anyway, I mean we're going on holiday on Sunday so she doesnt exactly have a choice. I dont want to go on holiday. Its at the most annoying time. Im missing my GCSE results day, peoples birthdays and V festival. Im not speaking to one of my best friends at the moment and I wont be able to sort things with them before I go, and theres other stuff which is just making this holiday seem like more of a pain in the arse by the day.
& new shoes have crippled me.

Dear lord, I feel depressive. Well not depressive but more like in a dead shit mood. It probably isnt helped by the fact that Im listening to Taking Back Sunday. What an emo...

ALSO! lately i keep doodling eyes and octopuses. I looked up meanings for both but apparently doodling octopuses isnt very common...however eyes are, and it said;
'Doodles of eyes are often sign of a wish to be alluring. However, repeatedly doodled eyes may indicate that they feel constantly watched.'
I found this quite funny as I keep thinking people are looking at me lately. I dont know if its me being paranoid, slightly vain or if Ive got something down my top and they really are thinking 'ha! gutted at her shes got something down her top! what a loser!'. Whatever reason, most likely to be the third, I thought it as funky that my doodle actually meant something, even if it is only small.

Fact: Rock Band on Xbox 360, is my second favourite game in the whole wide world ever.

After my brother bought the drum kit for it yesterday, Ive played it mostly all day today, and its effin amazing. Its replaced my original second favourite game which was Singstar on Play Station 2, but hasnt quite beaten the ultimate favourite, Wii Sports on Nintendo Wii. I know Im a games nerd, I really dont care.
Not being funny yeah, I challenge anyone to try and beat me on 'I Think Im Paranoid', 'Here It Goes Again' and 'Celebrity Skin'. I will crush you like a bug......im nice, i swear.

and now I'm going to go listen to the Beastie Boys.

...wanna sleep with common people like you
hannah thats not nice
its a song
shut your maaf

When I steal things off myspace innitz

40 secrets about yourself
Be honest no matter what.

[one] are you gay?
maaaaaybe

[two] where is your default picture taken?
damn myspace questions
my 'main' picture was taken in my room

[three] what is your middle name?
i lack one

[four] Do you have a crush?
i have a face

[five] does your crush like you back?
my face likes me

[six] whats your current mood?
alright-ish

[seven] what are you looking forward to?
err, not a lot really

[eight] what makes you happy?
5 year old children that look like foetus'
in a nice way

[nine] look at a poster in your room, who's on it?
Beastie Boys
you know it

[ten] What are you not looking forward to?
holiday. gOd

[eleven] if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
a foetus.
yes.

[twelve] have you ever had a near death experience?
ive been run over twice, that does count

[thirteen] what was the last phone conversation you had about?
err a load of stuff
how Shanade always gets mcdonalds. lawl

[fourteen] the song stuck in your head?
i dont actually have one for a change!
yay!

[fifteen] what is your desktop background?
The Horrors.

[sixteen] what are you wearing?
nan clothes

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
earlier today.

[eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
i have indeed.
like 2000 people. ohhh yeah

[nineteen] if you could have a super power what would it be?
time travel and stuff
like the japanese guy on Heroes

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
face

[twenty-one] what do you usually order from Starbucks?
Caramel Cream Frappachino

[twenty-two] what's your biggest secret?
On my days off im a ninja

[twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
phineus and ferb is the best kids programme ever ever ever.

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nowt. i want ice cream

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
wet concrete. nice perfume

[twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be??
lolz

[thirty] when was the last time you had a hug?
yesterday

[thirty-one] who did you hug?
Shanade

[thirty-two] what/who are you thinking about right now?
lawl
wouldnt you like to know....actually thats a bit distasteful, can we edit that bit out?

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
errr. nowt

[thirty-four] how often do you laugh ?
everyday

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
yard as in garden?
i dont like working in the garden

[thirty-seven] What are you doing this weekend?
tommorrow ill probably sleep. wehey

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around your crush/significant other?
er nope?

[thirty-nine] who was the last person to make you cry?
no comment.....your mum
eff you, im immature

[forty] are you in love with anyone?
i love people
im not in love with anyone. sorry

those songs are fit.
& they have been stuck in my head all night.

i feel nice and happy (:

I stole this off Sticks13. I larve her.

Song One
Girls & Boys - Good Charlotte
Your favourite lyric from this song: "the girls with the bodies like boys with ferraris"
Does this song have any bad memories attached? nope
What genre is this? punk/alternative

Song Two
Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
What's the last line of this song? "you dont care a bit"
Have you ever seen this artist live? nope
Who does this song make you think of? a sad day last year ):

Song Three
With Every Heartbeat - Robyn
What's the first line of this song? "maybe we could make it alright"
Where did you first hear this song? on the radio, in my garden, with OWL!
How about the first time you heard the artist? when OWL! told me the day before, because when the song came on she said 'this is who i was telling you about!'

Song Four
Always - Blink 182
Which friend could this be a theme tune for, and why? ben, because blink is his favourite band and hes a real hero (:
Write down the chorus:
"Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you
Always
Kiss you, taste you all night
Always"
Why do you like this song? because i like the chorus and i like blink 182 (:

Song Five
Loose Lips - Kimya Dawson
What kind of film would you choose this as the theme for? a sweet nice one. like Juno, because it is in that film haha
Who introduced you to this artist? My Friend
Best part of this song:
"If you wanna kill yourself
remember that i love you
call me up before youre dead
we can make some plans instead
send me an im
ill be your friend"

Song Six
All These Things That Ive done - The Killers
The fourth line reads: "And you cant hold on"
How long is this song? 5:02
Is it one of your favourites? yes it is
Why? cause it reminds me of when my mate and i were listening to live 8 on the radio in my garden, and it came on, and we basically jumped around and sang along to the 'ive got soul but im not a soldier line' then he nearly fell off the bridge thing and into the pond. one of the best days ever.

Song Seven
Get Over It - The Gullimots
How long have you been listening to this artist? just over a year
What's the cover look like on the album this came from? no idea
What's this song about? basically telling someone to get over it. what it is though i have no idea. its just fun to listen to on a summers day (:

and sing it to the tune of faggot! faggot! faggot!

Mindless Self Indulgence last night
yes. yes. yes.

Doors opened at 7. My 2 friends and I didnt get there til like quarter too which sucked. So got there met up with Shanade, known on here by most people as STiCKs13, and we chatted and shes lovely (: We then went round the corner to que, and it was like a mile long. No joke. So Shanade was our life saver, and let us go in the que with her! Thank you!!

Robots in Disguise started like 5 minutes after the doors opened so thanks to a que for the clockroom and actually getting sorted inside, we missed just under half of their set. I wasnt too bothered as I've seen them before but it would have been nice to see all of their songs.
IAMX played for what seemed like aages but I wasnt complaining. Id never seen them live before and they were really good. The only thing that spoilt it for me was the guy infront doing what can only be described as 'pelvic thrusting actions' ¬_¬
Then MSI came out, they started with Shut Me Up which was amazing. I had a good veiw of most things as there were plenty of short people infront of me, always a bonus. I cant remember a lot of it which is dissapointing. But I think the best songs were Shut Me Up, Faggot and Stupid Mf. The 'classics' as my mate called them.


Jimmy was as crazed as ever. I love the way he can shout abuse at everone and still have people thinking hes some kind of god. The show finished with that song 'no buisness like show buisness' or whatever its called being played and Jimmy pretending to conduct it to the audience. Absolutely Immense. AND! Steve, the guitarist, signed my ticket after! He remembered my friend aswell from their last gig. He called my friend a cunt. ooohhh yeah

I got my nose pierced today
hurt quite a bit but i didnt cry (:
I was too scared to open my eyes whist the guy did it though

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